Enough is enough. Maybe to you it’s “no big deal”. To me it is. Honestly, it makes me sick to my fuckin stomach to know that you can “unknowingly” disrespect me. You got caught up before me finding out you fucked another bitch and “almost” got the stupid hoe pregnant. The girl you took out to lunch and say is just a friend?! And the fact that you never mentioned it to me that she follows you on twitter and God knows what other social network you’re in cause I’m too fuckin chicken shit to find out. I don’t what is going on with you but I cannot talk to you sometimes. Even though YOU were the one who hurt me and betrayed me and our family, why does it seem like I have to cater to you. Why am I even still here? I hate your birthday because you share it with her now. But I try my best to keep a smile on my face FOR YOU. You always put me first, yes I know that. But how do I keep going on like this with us never talking about it. Like it never happened? I carry this feeling constantly hoping it will get better or it will go away. Yet, it still lingers. You tell me “soon we’ll get married” but I can’t do it until I feel like you have been honest with me. I just don’t know anymore. I’m mentally and emotionally tired. Why? Why did you have to do this to me? To us? To our family?! I’m too fuckin scared to leave you because I love you too much. Was loving you “too much” too much? Was I smothering you that you needed something else from someone else? I just want you to tell me!
I don’t want to be that girl anymore.
Oh my gosh people, be nice to your waiter/waitress, it’s not their fault that your food is cold or if it’s under cooked. Be nice to the cashiers who are still training and can’t ring up your items as quickly as you want. If a stranger smiles and says hello to you, smile and say hello back! It’s just common courtesy, I don’t understand why people have to be so rude.